I see dead people.
By Christy On Friday, December 21, 2007 At 12:49 PM
Doctors are not my friend, never have been and probably never will be. Maybe it is because I've NEVER had one who I felt gave a hoot about me. I'm not a hypochondriac like many people in this world seem to be. I don't typically take sick days for myself, only for my son. And I won't go to the doctor unless I'm in a great deal of pain or discomfort. Ever.
Even when that is the case, even when I have been sick for WEEKS, I still often am told that it is just a virus and there is nothing I can do. Yadayada. Morons. If I were your daughter, wife, sister, etc. would you treat me the same way? Would you throw me off to the wayside just thinking I'm being dramatic or that I am exaggerating?
Temporary insanity or intense peer pressure have set in, because I just made a freakin' appointment to see an eye doctor. I sincerely believe the majority of my issues are currently lying with my eyes in some way. Light sensitivity, blurry vision and eye strain are probably the reason I am having such bad headaches. The headaches make me stressed and cause muscle pain in my neck and shoulder due to tension. Then I have trouble sleeping and become irritable. It is a trickle down or domino effect if you will. (Coupled with a four-year-old who has poor sleeping habits, yes, that is my fault).
If there was less stress in my life and if I was able to get more uninterrupted sleep I bet I would feel like a million bucks. I've got a great life, one that I wish more people could somehow have because I feel so blessed. Here we are 72 hours from Christmas and I'm feeling crappy. Not even just physically, you know, because I know if my mental well being were in check I'd be feeling pretty chipper right now. I mean, I can't make it sound awful...I am happy. I am excited. But it's kind of like there is a battle going on inside me, a tug of war...the fight between good and evil. Any further explanation would sound more absurd and make less sense.
"Do, or do not. There is no try." - Yoda
Even when that is the case, even when I have been sick for WEEKS, I still often am told that it is just a virus and there is nothing I can do. Yadayada. Morons. If I were your daughter, wife, sister, etc. would you treat me the same way? Would you throw me off to the wayside just thinking I'm being dramatic or that I am exaggerating?
Temporary insanity or intense peer pressure have set in, because I just made a freakin' appointment to see an eye doctor. I sincerely believe the majority of my issues are currently lying with my eyes in some way. Light sensitivity, blurry vision and eye strain are probably the reason I am having such bad headaches. The headaches make me stressed and cause muscle pain in my neck and shoulder due to tension. Then I have trouble sleeping and become irritable. It is a trickle down or domino effect if you will. (Coupled with a four-year-old who has poor sleeping habits, yes, that is my fault).
If there was less stress in my life and if I was able to get more uninterrupted sleep I bet I would feel like a million bucks. I've got a great life, one that I wish more people could somehow have because I feel so blessed. Here we are 72 hours from Christmas and I'm feeling crappy. Not even just physically, you know, because I know if my mental well being were in check I'd be feeling pretty chipper right now. I mean, I can't make it sound awful...I am happy. I am excited. But it's kind of like there is a battle going on inside me, a tug of war...the fight between good and evil. Any further explanation would sound more absurd and make less sense.
"Do, or do not. There is no try." - Yoda
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I hope you feel better. I was just talking to Nettie about that very thing. I felt foolish for going but had to go to make sure my shoulder was not more damaged than I thought and she fell and had major elbow pain. And got the same diagnosis: Ice and Ibuprofin and you'll be in pain for a long time. Oh goody. But, like she said, if we don't go, it would be a more serious problem. So it's good that you are going. Those are pretty serious symptoms. NOt in a "near death" sort of way honey, but something you should at least have checked out. Safe is far better than sorry.
Yeah I'll keep ya posted. I wish for better health for my family this new year. =o) Thank you for the comment, I appreciate it =o)