I think I am finally over the stomach bug. Hmmm. But I made a doctor's appointment for tomorrow evening because I am getting sick far too often and there are people in my life **cough cough mom and brian cough cough** who are freaking out and insisting I see a doctor.

Braeden seems to be feeling alright. The doctor isn't as concerned now with the lump since there seems to be a cause for it. (Bumping his head). We go back to the doctor on Thursday morning. And he is going to have a complete physical done. =o)

Now. For the exciting, wonderful, sparkly news.

In the midst of my stomach bug, Brian asked me to marry him.

He couldn't wait until I was feeling better because he had the ring, he was too excited and well I've been sick for 5 weeks now give a take a couple so-so days. Lord only knows when I will be healthy again.

Bri is my best friend and so I am thrilled that we are both finally in this happy place together. I'm so at peace with this decision, I said yes, and my parents and brother are excited. Brian's parents are excited, though I haven't gotten to see them since I still sick. I hope I get to see them soon.

The ring is gorgeous. Very shiny and sparkly. I can't seem to take a picture that does it any justice. There is such intricate details on the band. There are little diamonds almost all the way around the band. And on either side of the center stone (round) there is a cluster of diamonds wrapped in rose gold. They look like little clovers. My Mom says it is symbolic of the three of us; me, Brae and Brian.

Most of all. I am very happy. And I feel so blessed to know I will be marrying my best friend. Don't expect any big wedding or plans. We'll be engaged for awhile and I'm hoping to "elope" with a select few there with us when it happens.

For now, I'm enjoying the sparkly! And hoping I start feeling better so we can celebrate!

Oh and Congrats to Vicki and Tim who recently found out they will be having a baby!

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Braeden had a rough weekend at his fathers, which is something I always brace myself for because he often acts differently when he comes back. So dealing with his clinginess and irritable mood is something I can do.

Sunday night my Mom saw a pronounced lump on Braeden's head, near the hairline behind his left ear. It's well above where glands should lay and it's about a 1 cm. lump. It's not red or bruised even though Brae mentioned someone hitting him. I made the first doctor's appointment for Monday morning and went in hoping for the best.

I left feeling more worried.

At the moment he is being treated as if it is a swollen gland that just happens to be located in an odd area. I am to closely monitor it and if it gets bigger I need to bring him back to the doctor immediately because it could be something "serious" that would require "aggressive treatment." Stupid doctors and their vague pockets of information. Though the doctor did say it is possible he has an inflammation of the mastoid bone behind his ear. Typically this happens when the ear has been infected and the fluid has seeped into the air cells of this "honeycomb" structured bone.

The way to treat it is the problem isn't a gland would be surgically.

An incision would have to be made to see that the lump is indeed an inflammation of the bone. That part of his bone would need to be removed. Then the area would need to be drained. This treatment is called a mastoidotomy.

Thank God for Brian. He was able to relax be and encourage me a little bit. I don't know how he does it.

So. Last night instead of sleeping I just watched my little boy sleep. And I kept peeking to see if the lump was gone. I want it to go away. To disappear.

Prayers are welcomed.

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Life takes unexpected turns all the time.

You find yourself so certain about something and then that something, well, it walks away. My best friend has been dealing with all sorts of emotional heartache. I wish she knew what I saw in her, I wish she knew how strong she really is.

And. You find yourself with five different articles due in one week. Because people actually like the way you write.

How does that happen? These unexpected turns.
We're driving the car, but God has the map.

I wish I could share happiness and faith with everyone. But the truth is that they need to find it for themselves. That is something I didn't know until about four months ago. Haha. You'd think I would have learned that well before that, but apparently it was later down the road on the map. And maybe that is why I am so content, so sure, so filled with joy for all the blessings I have in my life.

Because they've been a long time coming. =o)

Monday morning, so I'm feeling a little bit sluggish, but it's bright outside today, lots of sunshine and that's a good thing. Seems as though I got a little color on my cheeks yesterday while being outside. As superficial as it may be, I love when I get a tan in the summer, it makes me feel better about myself. Plus, the sun gives you Vitamin D!

Mother's Day was wonderful for me. Everyone made me feel so special. Braeden gave me the cutest things that he made during daycare. One in particular that I loved is a book he made. He was asked questions and his answers were written down for him word-by-word. When asked how old I am his response was "3." When asked how much I weigh, his response was "3 pounds." Where does Mommy work? He said "Far away, with friends." When asked who Mommy's best friend is, he responded "Brian." He was asked where does Mommy like to go and he replied "To Uncle Greg's, far away." Among the many questions and answers he also drew several pictures. There is a portrait of me, I have crazy hair. Haha! He drew ice cream which is apparently my favorite food. The book is something I will treasure forever!

My brother called in the morning to speak with both my Mom and I. Hearing from him is always wonderful and I'm happy he thought to call. He also sent Mom flowers, very well done little brother!

We went to my Grandma's for dinner and celebrated both Mother's Day and my Grandma's 76th birthday. As my Grandma loves a good BBQ we had hamburgers, hot dogs, coleslaw, salad and lots of fruit. Everything was fantastic. Brae and I especially loved the nachos and dip. =o) Well, I guess Brae loved the watermelon the most. (Without the "nuts")

I think my Mom had a nice Mother's Day. I had gotten her necklaces, one is a rectangle with a heart cutout and the other is the heart. I'm wearing the heart necklace and she is wearing the shape with the cutout. =o) I also bought her a very nifty bag off of Etsy.com! Love that place!

We went to see Brian's Mom after the BBQ and had another BBQ! I think I'm still full. Haha. Brae ate a hot dog, the WHOLE thing! He played ball with Brian and the Scotties. Good times. Brian's parents were super nice as usual and the evening went by too fast. We did make it home in just enough time to see the last episode of 7th Heaven. I'm so upset the show has officially ended, as I think it is one of the better television shows in history!

So all in all, though busy, the day was wonderful. Actually, my whole weekend couldn't have been any better unless it were a day longer. =o)

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This evil cold has officially hit the two week mark. Though I'm still coughing and have a headache, I have to say I'm not as sore as I was earlier this week. Thank goodness for some relief.

Brae was an animal again last night. Okay, maybe not an animal but extremely contrary. Sometimes I just don't know what to do other than to tell him he has to go straight to bed without any fun movies. We'll see how tonight goes.

Tuesday night Brian and I went to a viewing. One of his co-workers, Julie, had just gotten engaged and right after that exciting news her brother was in a tragic car accident and he didn't make it. I didn't know anyone there, but it was still hard to be there. We waited in line for nearly two hours just to get into the funeral home. And there were probably another 100 people behind us! When someone so young dies unexpectedly there are no words that can alleviate the grief. Nothing you can say or do will help, it just takes time. Julie was nearly hysterical and I can't blame her one bit. The loss her and her family are suffering from is horrible. My heart goes out to them.

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Apparently I like furniture made for sitting because recently I posted a couch that I loved and now check out this bubble chair.

How cool is that? It's just so cute. I can see myself sitting in that chair and reading for an entire afternoon. It would feel like I was swinging outside, but there wouldn't be any pollen and flower sex going on. =o)

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No, it's not the 12 days of Christmas. This is the 12th day of me not feeling well. And I hate to say it, but I amy have to go to the doctor. It has gotten to that point, where now I seriously just don't know what to do to get better. Everything has settled in my chest now, just when I thought I was getting over this freak of a cold.

Last night we watched "How I Met Your Mother" and Lily and Marshall got married. It was one of those weddings that was originally supposed to be very small and intimate. Then their mothers got involved and the numbers went from 25 to somewhere in the three digits. In addition, everything that could go wrong DID go wrong. No flowers, no photographer, her veil ripped, his hair was a disaster and their harp player went into labor. Still, at the end they got married...with just their three closest friends by their side, a random acoustic guitar and a nice top hat outside the Church right after a slight breakdown session. Barney officiated the ceremony and had to run through it super speed fast because he ended up getting so choked up. The show was perfect! (I am going to include this little excerpt on the TV blog, too)

Braeden was good all day yesterday and for most of the evening. But then as it got later into the night he became the monster Braeden. Nothing could please him, he was so tired he couldn't even stand himself. Not feeling well and also being tired my patience was wearing thin. I know Brian's was, too. All he needed to do was pick up his toys and put them away. He adimantly refused and so I told him if I have to clean them up he wouldn't be getting them back. The sobfest that acrued was indescribable. It got to the point where he was crying so hard he couldn't breathe, he started coughing, his face was bright red. So then I had to keep my voice calm, try to get him to relax so he didn't work himself up anymore and have an asthma attack. My shoulders are still tight with tension.

Today will be a better day.

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Just finished my PB&J sandwich.

It was good.

See spot. See spot run.

Okay, no, I'm wilting already. The weekend was wonderful, in spite of the fact that Brae was with his father. I was able to spend a lot of time with Brian. Lots of talking and movie watching.

Brian and I drove around Philly Friday night. Lol. Seems like a silly thing to do, but it ended up being a lot of fun. It seems meant to be as it turns out there was a lot to talk about. I think it was a great car ride and a therapeutic conversation.

Ken stopped by Saturday afternoon. It was really nice to see him. He's been working out and losing weight, he looks great. Happy and healthy. He is preparing to take two weeks off and travel to Hawaii. Lucky him. =o)

We went to see Spider-man 3 with his parents on Saturday night and I really loved the movie. It's making me mad that so many people are knocking it. Yes I agree it had too much going on in it, but the actors all did a fantastic job and the effects were amazing. Not to mention I had great company!

Yesterday Bri and I ate delicious Pat's pizza which is becoming a ritual for us I think. And we watched "An American Haunting" which I thought was supposed to just be a ghost story. It was terrifying, but it was more than a horror flick. And had I know how it would end I never would have sat through it. I like scary movies because even though I jump out of my skin, I like it. I'm weird. I just like it. But this movie upset me. I mean. I was just distraught afterwards. Please don't want it if you would be upset my harm coming to children. Specifically young girls... Thank goodness Brian was there to calm me.

When Braeden came home everything was all back to normal and perfect. Even his attitude. We played ball, he ate a ton of pizza and then he and Brian jammed on their guitars. I took at least 50 pictures because they were so cute together. My rock stars!

We ended the night with a phone call from Auntie Natalie, 7th Heaven and Are You Afraid of the Dark? Good times. Always good times. =o)

Now if I could just get rid of this cold.

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