This evening will be day four of seeing Dr. Schreiber. Last night my visit was the shortest yet and it was mostly due to my not being able to relax. Not much you can do in terms of readjusting people when their muscles are all tight. Bless his heart for trying.

Brae and I did the Wii Fit exercises again last night after we got home. It feels good to work out as a "game" because it's not so grueling. Ya know?

There was a slight mob outside on our street last night around 9 p.m. I asked Brian to call the police after it lasted about 15 minutes. I was afraid someone would get hurt and the kids wouldn't get out of the street. Traffic couldn't pass and obscenities were heard loud and clear. Little ears were alert. When Brian called the police claimed they already knew, but as far as I know they never drove by to check it out. *sarcastic shock*

When Brae came home on Sunday night he was oh so cuddly. In all honesty, I know no other feeling so warm and loving as the feeling of a child running up to you and throwing their arms around your neck in a tight embrace.

He had a bruised face and wicked sunburn which his doctor noted on Monday when I took him for a physical. Meh. I was told he fell into a table. I know he is clumsy, it just doesn't look "table-esque" to me. But now on Wednesday I can say he does look better and says he is feeling better. Now if only I could take him with me to work so I can know it for sure. =o)

This brings me to the worst feeling in the world...the feeling of helplessness when it comes to keeping your baby safe. Don't get me wrong, I have and will always do everything within my realm of power to protect my boy. It is when he it outside my realm that I worry. Fortunately, my Mom has a day care and I know he is in good hands when I am at work.

Remember when the whole blog idea first started and we thought it was mostly private? How fantastic it would feel to just pour my heart out entirely...

Friends, let me ask you this, do you believe talking about things makes them better? So often I am told I need to just talk and let it all out. Truthfully, I have done this, I have opened up, but it doesn't heal me. Talking does not remove the poisons for me. I must be doing it wrong, I'm not letting go, I don't know how. And this brings me back to the beginning...I store all the pain and tension, right up in my neck and shoulders.

Dr. Schreiber, poor Dr. Schreiber, what a mess you have on your charts. =o)

Labels: brae, brian, chiropractor, home, pain, truth

So it turns out Dr. Schreiber is a chiropractor. My skepticism of all doctors typically has me acting like a brat the entire visit. Dr. Schreiber took it and dished it. He said I waited too long to have someone help me so I could have relief. He said my being stubborn has made the problem worse. He also said he thinks he can help me. He is giving himself and me a two week goal. If in two weeks the pain has not gotten better then he will send me for x-rays.

Lots of paperwork and hundreds of questions went by before any evaluation. I was happy about this because I felt not only was he really listening to me, but he was also being thorough in explaining what was happening. He asked me questions and I felt comfortable asking him questions. His assistant was also very helpful. She sat with us the whole time and I was able to joke with her about life. The two of them definitely aided me in feeling hopeful.

Dr. Schreiber said he would not be sugar coating anything. That the pain in my muscles and joints had gotten worse because I am so stubborn and that repairing the damage would hurt, really hurt. Today he will administer electric shock and he said it would definitely hurt, but it is necessary to tire the muscles and force them to deflate (for lack of better words.)

I guess I didn't want to admit that my carrying tension in my neck and shoulders could inevitably cause such pain and damage. He said pushing down on the top of my shoulder was like pushing into a wall. No give. Just a tight muscle. So tight that I'm nauseous and in constant pain. Dr. Schreiber did some spine adjustments after the consultation but again said I should come back tonight. He also said I should take Magnesium supplements because many women are deficient in Magnesium which acts as a natural muscle relaxer.

This morning I went to the dentist; first time in eleven years! The side of my mouth where I am experiencing pain is fine. Three x-rays showed no trauma or cavities. One tooth (my most sensitive) was biting down before all other teeth and therefore getting beat down more than the others. He adjusted it a bit by grinding down part of it and now when I bite down I can feel all my teeth biting down together. The dentist's name is Dr. Bishop, he is fantastic.

So, I feel this week I have taken great strides. For a girl as stubborn as me who absolutely hates seeing doctors I am taking steps to find out what I need to do to be more comfortable and pain free.

Labels: chiropractor, dentist, hope, pain